This is a pretty good illustration on how I feel today.
I was hoping this week would be a lot more productive than it has been.
I need a little blog therapy….
I need to remind myself to breath too.
First off I cannot stand being lied to. Some people think that my being an open book is a fault…but at least you know where I stand..I am not hiding things from people…if I say I am going to do something I do it and if for some reason I can’t I tell you.
Last week was a challenge too. My husband had come home from my dad’s shop and said he was told that we need to remove all of our stuff. I understand there is construction going on and stuff was in the way but to have to remove everything was a shock. Now I have piles of stuff everywhere. Some will go to The Creative Wedge, some was given away, some is piled up around the house waiting for a home, some under the bed, some to the thrift, and quite a bit thrown away. This is not helping my anxiety…stuff piled up everywhere. That was the last tie with dad…he still has the blueberry bushes…wonder if they will need to be removed too? I have been officially cut off…I expected it…it has been happening for years…little things here and there….and always some lie covering it up….the lie always exposed… I’d rather him just say…Hey you don’t deserve this than to tell me a fib. My feelings are hurt…as always with anything involving him. C’est la vie
Then we have the lease…this is my glitch this week….we received the first draft Friday Feb. 1 late in the afternoon. We couldn’t get into the lawyers to go over it until Wed. Feb.6…that evening Barbara sent an email with the few revisions and questions we had…no word on anything on Thursday…Thursday evening we hear that they were busy on another deal and it would be worked on Friday morning…no word…. Friday, Saturday, Sunday, Monday…Tuesday Barbara sends a text..Tuesday afternoon we receive a copy of the email sent to the landlord with the date and time conveniently missing from the forwarded message. Wednesday another email is forwarded saying questions received…which proves they were not emailed until Tuesday afternoon.
When you tell little fibs they will catch up with you….you forget to cover your tracks….don’t tell me that the accountant can’t justify something and turn around 6 months later and justify it for someone else …don’t tell me you are working on my deal on Friday and then wait until Tuesday.
I don’t deserve to be lied too…no one does…
So here I sit…anxious as hell…stewing on things that irk me….things that I could let go if I were doing something productive….like working on the build out of our new store….or all the other things we can’t do until we sign the lease and have an address….